56th : second phase, 4th anniversary.

last year, i did a video dedicated to my classmates... anniversary.
i lost the video since my notebook is restored for some reasons. inevitable reasons.
empty.
4 years. ago.
at this hour, i think my friends and i were preparing ourselves to assemble at the hall.
nevertheless, ain't celebrating this.

previous sem - my tears spent in the middle of it.
this sem - it's not even began, i've spent some over it.

first phase - didn't really care about grade was gonna get.
after the result - when others got A, was distress.
coming to the second phase - felt like holding grudge to that mister. sorry. awful that i felt the grudge after the thing had passed. am erasing it.

realization. the agriculture lecturer once said,
"to grow it, to make it alive, not our business. it's Allah's work. we just do our best..."

thus, same goes to the result i have got. why should i be under pressure when i knew i did my best? keep the faith.

the second phase.
july 15th.
i am doing better.
insya Allah.