am sorry that i don't share modules here.
TSL modules?

but you can e-mail me, i will share the modules but assignments. :)

Monday, December 23, 2013

64th : 23 x 2.

23 x 2 = 46. change 6 to be in front of 4. it is 64. heh. this my karut-marut. it's just today is dec 23rd.

the last paper was TSL3112.
ahah. i wasn't confident about that paper. was i confident for the previous papers? SoQ.
what was the questions about? ar... i.. have.. forgotten. :P so sorry that i'm human who forgets.

the result is already out.

praise be to Allah is all i can say.

yet, yada. so far, i haven't seen remarks from the anyone from this cohort one of PISMP (TESL) saying that it's easy as ABC to score in this course. heh. from the juniors? there are a lot. they even scored the flat! amazing huh? other courses also. bla3. stop whining. hee.

so, the hols is near the end.

A.R. -_____________________-

all the best!

final year!!

wabillahi taufiq wal hidayah wassalamu'alaikum warohmatullai wabarokatuh. 

Friday, November 8, 2013

63rd : another paper to leave.

how are you? ...

okeyh. exam has begun. and desperately wanna go home!

TSL 3111 
what to say? my assignment marks is very unsatisfying. well. i deserved the marks, though. but, in order to set my pointer target, that is one factor that makes my motivation to decrease and makes my spirit to give up. but, my heart told me to do my very best! ^_^ and my brain too told me that i have time! it's time. ah-ha. thus, alhamdulillah. i ain't really worrying.
about the course, it has only 6 topics. i thought, it's only me that thought the topics were too little? no. my friends thought that way too. 6 topics and the content of the topics are like... repetitious? not to say the  paper was going to be easy, but we were afraid if the questions would be like outside of our mind like writing paper in the previous sem. it was like... hmmmm.... too difficult. the difficulty is because of the subjectivity of the questions. :) that's what i think.
in addition, we, as the pioneer of the course have no certain reference. for other courses, they might ask for past year questions, at least, they could imagine the questions pattern like. we (us)? hee... well. mother told me that would make you in a real tawakkal, insya Allah. :) thus, no worries. :)
the questions were on types of materials, factors and principles of  selection and adaptation and evaluation of materials... to what extent ESL materials help teachers in their teaching? then, how to exploit the given materials to teach other language skills? advice to be given to this teacher who wants to produce a big book using raw materials. language skills to be implemented for the particular materials. okay.

RBT 3120
i was thinking to exchange notes with friends in other campus. but, i realized that for elective paper, it's set-up at the campus level. hmm.... so, we just really went into the lecture notes that we have. haha. for me, honestly, i enjoyed revising RBT courses. this is because it is factual and like adding knowledge and sometimes it's something near us in our daily life, but in the course it has the specific terminology used. for example in teknologi rumah tangga (home science technology), about the french seam, the belahan everything. hahaha. they're on the attire we wear everyday! ^_^

going to buy some fish! 

bought fish. ehm... the blacky fish died after about 24 hours or less... hee. 

the white sand should be washed thoroughly and meticulously... others' aquariums have more accessories, to be frank. -_- 

okay. another 5 days! ^_^

Monday, November 4, 2013

62nd : a.


Sunday, October 13, 2013

61st : photos of RBT 3120.

RBT 3120.
consists of three components.
agriculture. fishhhhh. home science technology.

i haven't really posted an entry of the course. ...

here is the post.

this is kailan. i forgot what it is called in English. of course the kailan had been harvested during our practicum. 

this one is brinjal plant. hm. it's now grown up. about a month ago, this plant hadn't produce fruits yet. by now, i don't know. maybe someone had harvested them too. hee. i wish i can visit the plants. 

grown up kailans.

the roots. yeah. hydroponic. organic. haha.

cleaning the aquarium... 

clear. next to be done was to buy some fish. next entry. 

finally!! i know how to use this!! ^_^ 


silang pangkah. 

beads. haha. not my work. someone's. heee. yeah. it's my assignment, though. :P only this part i couldn't help myself to do. others, authentically my touch!!!

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

60th : i'm alive!

alhamdulillah am alive.
am alive.

practicum. phase 2. done. successfully? no. gracefully? i don't think so.

the portfolio. it's been two weeks. i haven't updated the weekly reflective journal. the pernyataan profesional. the journal is not updated for the eighth week. professional statement? everything. am dead if my lecturers are reading this.

i laugh.
when i can't tell you my thoughts. my feelings. my instinct.
i laugh.
when i can't answer your inquiries.
i can't answer because the blame is on me.
my answers will turn out to be excuses.
thus, it's better to say nothing. nothing.
i laugh.
when i feel tickled.
yeah. funny; in my point of view.
i laugh.
to... hide myself?


if after the first practicum finished i felt disappointed for my grade.
for this second phase, i knew that i deserved the grade.
i realised that even before the lecturer tells me.

that ego in me; i hate to hear negative comments about me from others when i am aware of the bad me.

that awkward me; i don't know or i can't respond to praises... to positive comments from others about me. yeah.

both ego and awkward me are negative.

i am labelled as 'sombong'. ahah. i am labelled as 'kera sumbang'.

at the school. i write these statements based on the feedback i received from the collaborating teacher.

'sombong'... proud. i used to that kind of label in secondary school. commented by the boys. ... that is just okay, for me, for that context. but, for this practicum context, it's just... kind of wrong to be happened?

'kera sumbang'. i never received this comment before the second phase practicum. ha-ha.
yada. am learning to be 'kera sumbang'. thus, i've succeed? ha-ha.

and yes.
i am not frustrated over my practicum result.
i don't know how should i arrange my words to construct one clear sentence to describe.
i am sad, but frustrated.

pointer. another issue. 3.85. am too far to chase that.

and for this sem, i am quite... hurnm. demotivated.


am enjoying myself.
to finish the ELS report. yada. am the secretary. maybe i can apply that pose after graduation. kah3. two years experience of being a secretary. that should suffice the requirement of new recruits in getting a job, isn't it? NO? ah.
to play netball in the evening. ha-ha.
to finish sewing a night-blouse for RBT3120. coursework. not for fun.
to slowly slow complete my practicum portfolio. :P
to not have negative thoughts about others. i have had enough.
to help others maintain relationship from being broken. silaturrahim. ukhuwah? no? i mean it when i say i care about you. i love you. yes. the word love from me is not exclusive for certain people that i call as my clan or gang. islam teaches us about love. why should it be exclusive like branded products in malls? yet, it's not that cheap that you can get it anywhere easily. it's just affordable. to make it affordable, it depends on the terms and conditions described in the Qur'an and sunnah. yeah. i don't wanna elaborate more. :P

one of enjoyable moments in this semester. RBT 3120

one of enjoyable weekends in this semester. 

Friday, September 13, 2013

Sunday, August 25, 2013

58th: confused.

it hurts.
not because of the comments. not because of the critics.

it's because why am i not improving?

it's the why questions on me, myself!


Don’t be sad by what you see
It’s true life has it’s miseries
But one thing’s always worked for me
Worry ends when faith begins

Lyrics are taken from

Thursday, July 18, 2013

57th : lame.

i hope this entry won't be the reason my blog's hits increase.

watch the video.



i.. frankly writing, yeah, it doesn't really matter if i ain't guaranteed...

but, one thing, my CERT must be ACCREDITED and GUARANTEED for that i can apply anything after 5 years and half....

am doing best to get QUALIFIED CERT.

it's like, u're saying we can be anything after we graduate. okay fine. make sure it's FOR REAL.


thanks my lecturer in the academy i went before i enter the institute to remind me, ALLAH'S THE BEST PLANNER. GO TO HIM. ASK FOR HIM FOR ANYTHING. HE WON'T DISAPPOINT YOU.



Saturday, July 13, 2013

56th : second phase, 4th anniversary.

last year, i did a video dedicated to my classmates... anniversary.
i lost the video since my notebook is restored for some reasons. inevitable reasons.
4 years. ago.
at this hour, i think my friends and i were preparing ourselves to assemble at the hall.
nevertheless, ain't celebrating this.

previous sem - my tears spent in the middle of it.
this sem - it's not even began, i've spent some over it.
first phase - didn't really care about grade was gonna get.
after the result - when others got A, was distress.
coming to the second phase - felt like holding grudge to that mister. sorry. awful that i felt the grudge after the thing had passed. am erasing it.

realization. the agriculture lecturer once said,
"to grow it, to make it alive, not our business. it's Allah's work. we just do our best..."

thus, same goes to the result i have got. why should i be under pressure when i knew i did my best? keep the faith.

the second phase.
july 15th.
i am doing better.
insya Allah.

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

55th : review.

in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

first of all, i owe you the story of my presentation for TSL 3109. the congruent communication by Haim Ginott.

this memory, my group members and i presented the theory using the software named
you can access to our presentation here :

i like this theory very much. much. much. all of us in my group agreed with the theory. and we did agree that this theory actually says what Islam teach us. to be positive. to be loving.

what amazed me that after our presentation, there was a sharing with a sister; a teacher,  about the Technique Used by our Prophet (peace be upon him) are similar to what my friends and i studied in Congruent Communication. i ain't that 'light skeleton' to type all the explanation, but briefly this is what i was thinking about. i'll try to upload pictures of some notes of the sharing, later. insya Allah.

my friends and i enjoyed our presentation very much. i, personally, had a great time. maybe because of the intensity of my feelings in doing it. he.

in the end of the presentation, we were asked, about being so congruent, what if the learners;students;pupils, of the opposite genders of the teachers take things wrongly? like falling in love, something like that... i was speechless. ha-ha. hm. that's the point where the counsellor of the school have roles to play. =)


if possible, i'll update more, tonight. insya Allah. ^_^

Friday, April 26, 2013

54th : end?

with a greeny-bear keychain. Milla, thanks.
taking the bear, "why trouble yourself?" and it was awkward...

grammar error; more chickenS!!

nothing much to be written.
yes, no surprises for me.
yes, no plenty of cute gifts for me.
yes, ain't expecting for those.

yet, it caused me to be tearful that so many things i didn't do with them.
just to see them smiling at me is sufficient.
no, i don't wanna be a teacher whom pupils afraid of.

ok. this is much. ha-ha.


#gotta complete the practicuum portfolio. few little things left; pernyataan profesional semasa and selepas only. go teacher!

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

53rd : flat.

in Malaysia, people in the tertiary level of education craving for four flat. i am too.

but, what about living in a flat? i am sensitive to know my pupils' background, even just to hear that they live in flat.

i love you, kids.

Sunday, April 21, 2013

52nd : blizzard.

was teaching that class initial blends... /br/... /bl/... and /cl/....

came to the word, "blizzard..." i pronounced it /bliz3d/ confidently... suddenly, one boy corrected me, "it's /bliza;d/ teacher..."

i was... ek? my confidence level decreased... my mentor teacher was observing my teaching and learning activities my dear!

after the lesson end, i asked him to help me carrying my stuffs....

okay. he has a sister teaching at international school as ICT teacher... he uses English at home. ok.

returned to campus... with that low self-esteem condition.

shared with my beloved sister about that bitter experience of the day....

we checked the pronunciation together. ok. i was and am correct!!! oh dear...


yes. i did check for pronunciation before i enter my class. but for the word blizzard, i felt my pronunciation is correct, so i didn't check twice.

that class on Friday, once made me wanna cry in the second week. and in the third week, they behaved very kindly and sweetly  and i detected attention seekers mode...

of 5 Rafflesia, 5 Alamanda and 5 Ixora... 5 Alamanda was the first caught my heart as a teacher trainee... 5 Ixora was the first trembled me with that feeling to cause tears rolling down on this skinny cheek... 5 Rafflesia - thank you for understanding my commands. ahah.

i hope all of them will behave for another one week.
i'll try my best my dear to make the learning as fun as possible. >.<

Ixora members

Rafflesia members

Alamanda members. i left Syakeel's name. very sorry.

Friday, March 22, 2013

51st : today is a fairytale.

ok. S.O.Q.


it's friday... it's gonna end in 3 hours...



brought printer to the classroom...

thanks to Keyla from bringing that from the hostel...

one assignment left after finished other three assignments in a rush!! it's like august rush! omo... august rush is cute. =.="

it's good to be honest, hee.. no.. i don't feel ashamed. yes, the guilt is there. but it's just inevitable. and i just can't put the blame anywhere. it's me who to be blame of. booo!

 i'll try to share with you about those stories i in debt to you. ha-ha.

now i can do many things i love to do that couldn't be done properly since March began.


will be waiting for ayah here, in the north district of Malaysia.

fairy is cute.
i was a fairy on the previous monday.
thus, i am was cute. 

LOL. haha.

we start the mid semester break with, alhamdulillah and in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful. 

Thursday, March 14, 2013

50th : i owe you.

50th : ordinal number. hahaha! << should change to S.O.Q. >.<

i have many things in my mind to be scribbled here. but, i still can't manage to steal some times to seat and type something. when i want to express myself about something, i need a longer time compared to this kind of entry.
K-O-T done.
cross country done.
BIG done.
assignments - most of them half-done.

so, my dear blog, i owe you many stories!

p/s: i really dun agree with people that think the past is not important. this is because the past do have influence over our actions and thinking today. don't you think so?
even, to be on the sunnah, it's in the past. isn't it? those who doesn't look back to the history, tend to repeat the mistakes in the future.

history and today
today and future
history and future
future and history
   seems far away from each other
    yet, they have a link can't be seen physically
     that actually closely related to each other

Sunday, February 17, 2013

49th : creating mood to restart.

these are for TSL 3108 assignment. it was finished at the eleventh hour, though. T_T i started it early, but after the checking, it was so heavy to continue doing it.

let's begin doing assignment for this semester!! ^_^

p/s: i realized that this blog gets hits for those course code, EDU, TSL... sorry to those people because i did mention the codes here, but not really an explanation about them specifically. ^_^" i'll try to share something about TSL 3109 - Congruent Communication, here (part of the exciting assignment for this semester, for me. ahah). insya Allah. :)

Sunday, January 20, 2013

48th : This cikgu teaches Chinese.

she's one of my seniors in the college.
i had one memory with her in one Ramadhan two years ago. we ate together in the same talam. :)

This cikgu teaches Chinese

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

47th : the hard times...

it's good if we find that we are problem.
i'ts good if we know people don't like us, are not comfy with us.

yeah. i'm saying it's good. humans. factually that humans... humans means us... so, we are created to face and solve the things we take it as problems.

if we are problem, what should we do?

if we are not liked or people don't comfy with us, what do we do?

ain't trying to be a motivator or what here. i want to share what i think.

as a Muslim, it's useless to live this life if we don't have any contribution toward people around us. this is one of the basic mind-settings, for me.

we're not living this life alone. we live this life with others.

then, how to be with others? of course, communicating.

and, i do believe and have faith, communicating either it's one way or two ways, it involves physically, emotionally and spiritually.

before all the communication occur, our mind setting should be cleared.

since last year, i found that the theory of Johari window's really made me think positively. yeah. alhamdulillah.

it's not only ourselves have a view for us and we do have something we don't know until someone tell us. we have people in the same circle with us and people that never know us like really know us (not in the same circle) that can help us to look at our hidden selves naturally (we don't have to ask people directly, it's just life). AND, when we do find something about ourselves from others, we just have to be fair to ourselves in accepting the things.

we may reflect on our lives...

for me, i've learnt.. i think. i do think that people around do have their own significance in my life. in building my character. definitely, they do help me to reflect my own self. this is just like putting ourselves in their shoes. yes. as simple as that, simple? maybe.

we do concern about ourselves.
but, we do too have to concern about  others.
others affect us in many ways.
to make others understand us, we have to share with them.
share what? share our thoughts. they might be not accepting ours, but at least they know.
and it has to be in two directions. it's unfair if they know about us, but we don't know them.
so, we have to know them too. know their thoughts too.
this is where we learn to respect each other.

i too a person that difficult to listen to others. but, do make du'as and do tell people to help me in improving myself. (people who live around me may not agree with this, but, at least this is what i think and feel...)

the hard times for us maybe different in situation, but the room of hope for us the same as we raise our hands and make du'a.


may Allah ease, people.

Friday, January 11, 2013

46th : The need for soft skills.

Sunday January 6, 2013

The need for soft skills

WHEN applying for a job, employers always want to know what a potential employee can do for the organisation. This is where soft skills come in handy and help snag that coveted job.
At the recent Memorandum of Understanding signing between Nilai University and DC Training Malaysia Sdn Bhd (which runs Dale Carnegie Training), the varsity’s vice president of academic affairs Prof Datuk Dr Sothi Rachagan explained the reason for the collaboration.
“Soft skills are critical for success. Dale Carnegie trainers focus on the five ‘drivers of success’ and this will give our students a headstart in their professional lives,” he said.
The “five drivers of success” are self-confidence, interpersonal skills, communication, leadership and improving one’s attitude.
The varsity is the first domestic tertiary education institution to enter into a partnership with Dale Carnegie. Under the partnership, the Dale Carnegie Training programme is available to all degree level students. A preview of the course was held at the signing ceremony to give students a sample of what to expect.
DC Training Malaysia Sdn Bhd president and chief executive officer Datuk Wan Hisham Wan Salleh assured students that those who attend the training would be more marketable.
He cited an example where those who underwent the course were preferred for job vacancies in Cyberjaya as employers were confident of their soft skills.
The varsity has also entered into collaborative agreements with other professional organisations to benefit its students, including the Malaysian Food and Beverage Executives Association who will provide professional certification for students from the varsity’s School of Hospitality and Tourism.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

45th : The Old Municipal Pool

i got this poem in my mailbox. Goodreads January newsletter. 

The Old Municipal Pool

The boards of the bathhouse are rotten,
deep in leaves the pool's cracked floor.
The town has changed and has forgotten.
Broken steps of iron ore
lead to a jungle of huge vines,
some hanging from a rusting tower
like a schoolgirl's doodled lines.
The air is thick with what's in flower.

The strange stillness recalls her name,
the empty desk in the next row,
how time had stuck in one scratched frame
now fifteen Decembers ago.
They'd found her dead in the deep water,
beaten, bruises on her throat,
a used-car salesman's long-haired daughter.
I still have her last love note.

I wander into the green gloom
beneath the canopy of leaves,
as though back into that classroom.
She had worn jeans and flowing sleeves
and turned to me with dreamy smiles,
our steps echoing in the school
as mine do now on ruined tiles
of an enormous swimming pool
the years have left a ghostly place
of rust, a splintered bathhouse door,
in whose shadows there is no trace
of what I had come looking for.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

44th : the first...

living on the ground. real ground. groundfloor. alhamdulillah. :) despite all the contras in my mind, alhamdulillah. :)

the first lecture today was culture and learning. EDU 3106. went through the course proforma. it's like revising social studies. initially i thought it would be the same. but, later, i should take that as an advantage. :) in a way.

the second lecture was TSL 3110. 100% coursework. no examination. that just made my jaw dropped for a few seconds. insya Allah khair. insya Allah khair. huhuh. we did discussion. we did presentation. my group got to explain about contextualism (teaching and learning English using context). smartphone is very useful at that time since we're not really ready with notes, laptop nor ref. books. hadeyy.. then i got the group that compare and contrast KBSR and KSSR syllabus. uhuh.

the first lecture. i was fighting my sleepy-head from falling on the table. i lost to my sleepiness. the men classmates laughed at me that i fell asleep on the first day in 2013. -_-"

tomorrow, OLA (olahraga).

i just overlooked my responsibilities again returning to this campus. -_-" it's not endless, but hard to end. may Allah ease.